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christmas (12/25/2025)

I was really looking forward to today earlier this month. I had all these plans for what I wanted to do, the kinds of gifts I wanted to give everyone. I was happy giving people the stuff I got for them, but today I just felt sort of hollow.

I wish everything were simpler. At least I got to see Ariel today! I am very happy about that! ^_^ I'll try to remain optimistic about the rest of December!

still learning (12/18/2025)

It feels like I can't do anything right lately! For the past month, I just keep making lots of silly mistakes and having general bad luck. I know this just means that I'm learning, but it's still very discouraging to me!

I'm going to try to not let it get me down! It certainly helps that I am medicated!

road trip! (12/13/2025)

My brother told me that it was feeling sick, so I took a road trip today after work to bring it some comfort stuff! I'm super glad that I did! I feel really good even though the drive took longer than expected! It was so worth it! We had a really nice and fun conversation! It's always super nice to see it!

Right as I was leaving this afternoon to visit, a winter storm started but... I didn't really care about that, to be honest. I wanted to do this no matter what!

long week (12/11/2025)

I'm really bothered for multiple reasons. Just working a lot and doing more than I think I should. I feel like I can't do anything right lately. I missed my medication dose a couple times this week because... SIGH! It just makes me so tired! All I have energy to do is go to work all day (tired) and sleep and get up and do it again and again and again.

I don't know what I want, I'm just very frustrated! I need to force myself to take this medication no matter what. I just wish I had some time for my hobbies these days.

christmas plans (12/06/2025)

Hi again! It's 06:00am where I'm at, but I feel really good-- so I thought I'd get it on record!

Hanukka, Christmas, and Kwanzaa are all coming up... Do you have any plans for this season? I have a sort of love-hate relationship with this time of year. On one hand, I hate driving in this weather and the cold darkness of it all makes my mental health act up (more than usual, LOL). But, I've learned to really love the spirit of Christmas! I love giving gifts and writing cards and making sweets for people! I love the decorations and the stylish, winter clothing!

It can be undeniably expensive, though! I've been working quite a lot lately, but still... I normally hate spending money... But this kind of thing is different. For me, it is, anyway. I get much more pleasure out of buying things for others than I do buying things for myself. Maybe I'll take some pictures and show you the gifts I'm putting together! Once I finish my shopping, that is!

Okay, that's all I'll say for right now! Try to stay warm! I'll talk to you later! Bye bye!!!

happy december (12/03/2025)

HEY! I know it's been a little while since I last checked in... I apologize for that! Things have been difficult and confusing for me lately. What have you been up to? I hope 2025 has treated you well! I have some updates for you!

New website layout: You've probably noticed it by now! I know (mostly) every page looks quite different... I like it that way, though! I'm very indecisive, as you already know, and I've found that trying to stick with one theme feels too constricting for me. Hopefully letting myself have more fun with each individual page will keep me sated longer. Let's see how long I can go without totally redoing everything again! LOL!

Mental health: I had a somewhat emergency psychiatric assessment done recently. I won't get into all of my diagnoses, of course, but long story short: I was told it is very possible that I have a dissociative disorder. This is obviously really scary to hear-- for me it is, at least. And tbh I'm still trying to come to terms with all of this and wrap my mind around it... But it does feel reassuring in a strange way. It helps to get a better idea of what's going on with me in any case. Hopefully, this will help me heal going forward! Whatever that looks like!

Hello hello! I hope you are having a cozy winter so far! I wanted to try posting a challenge every month to motivate myself and others to exercise kindness! I'm gonna call it my KINDNESS OBJECTIVE! Feel free to play along at home, if you want! I will be doing my best to do so myself! ^_^
Without further ado, the kindness objective for December is...

AVAILABILITY
What does this mean? December's kindness objective is all about making time for others in your life! This can include friends, loved ones, strangers, anybody!
What can I do? Making yourself available to others doesn't have to take up a lot of your time! If you are busy or low energy, you can...
Listen to someone talk about an interest or hobby that they are passionate about!
Ask how someone is doing and listen to them without judgement!
Hold the door for someone!
Smile at a stranger (maybe say hello or good morning)!
What else? If you have more time and resources available to you, here are some more ideas that you can try out...
Write personalized holiday letters to your loved ones! Can be a physical letter that you decorate at home, or a thoughtful text/e-mail!
Make a holiday treat and share it with others! Maybe a recipe that is special to you or maybe something new!
Help a friend or loved one with something (cooking, cleaning, holiday prep, etc)!
Feel free to take any of these ideas and try them out for yourself! If you are too tired or struggling yourself to do many/any of these, don't get down on yourself! There is always next month! Thank you for reading and I'll see you in 2026!