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Pouring From an Empty Cup

posted: march 25th, 2025 (04:00pm)
mood: overexerted

Hey! Good afternoon! I finally mustered up the courage to update my site! So all of the changes that I have been working on thus far should be visible! Again, I'm still working on everything! There are many pages that I have not updated yet and, consequently, have been taken down. There are several shrine pages that I want to update/redo as well, so hopefully I can get around to working on that soon too!

As for how I'm doing otherwise, I'm actually really worn down right now! For the past four or five months, I've been taking on a lot of new responsibilities and haven't had much time to myself. I struggle a lot with accepting help from others or allowing myself to take breaks before (I feel like) my work is done or I've "earned it"... Whatever that means. LOL. I'm not even entirely sure myself. But I keep dedicating myself to my obligations so ardently and without compromise that I end up working myself into the ground. T_T I've gotten sicker and lost weight because of it, but still I keep going.

So, I guess now, I'm reaching a point where my body is making the decision for me. I'm taking some time off at the moment to try and screw my head back on straight! Trying to take it easy this week... We'll see how that goes! I hope that you're having a peaceful and restful week too! I'll see you later! Bye!

Testosterone!

posted: march 14th, 2025 (02:00pm)
mood: sleepy

Hi! I just realized that it's been such a long time since I last updated my site that I haven't told you yet... But I started testosterone last year! I've been taking it for about ten months and I'm so, so, sooo happy with the changes that I've had so far! I wish that I had been updating my site this whole time, so I could have tracked my progress a bit more. T_T But, that's alright! I can start now!

Before I started T, I was afraid of being angry all the time. I had heard other people talking about being in a frequent state of rage on testosterone. So, that made me feel uneasy. Because I don't want to ever be needlessly combative or rude. So, I preemptively learned some anger management coping mechanisms. But, ever since I started, I personally haven't had a huge problem with that at all. In fact, I've found that my mood has generally stabilized quite a bit! What I have noticed is that when I become annoyed, I feel that frustration stronger and faster, but it subsides faster as well. I'm really thankful for that!

Whisper confession image that says 'I hate when I get Happy Trail hair caught in my belt. That shit hurts.'

The body and facial hair growth has been AMAZING! I've wanted a mustache since I was very little, so this is like a dream come true. LOL. Though, it's still growing in... My beard is slowly growing across my face too! But, right now, I just shave all of that, because it's too patchy to grow out at this point, and trim the mustache in some (probably futile) attempt to make it look neater. HAHA. One of my most favorite things about being on testosterone is the body hair! Just this past month, my chest hair has been growing in more, and I've had stomach hair/a happy trail growing in for a while (maybe six months)! ^_^

Actually, I just found this picture (right) and it's kinda making me laugh... Because I had my first experience with getting my stomach hair caught on my belt buckle, like, a month ago (it only took so long because I pretty much always wear a tucked in undershirt) and this is so real, but it's also funny to me because of the seemingly solemn and earnest tone of the "That shit hurts." LOLLL So true, Jake Gyllenhaal. Thank you.

Anyway... I could probably go on forever, but testosterone has helped me so, so much! I finally really love the way that I look and feel... Which is truly amazing, I never thought that this would be possible for me!!!!!! T_T But, I won't get all emotional now, hahaha! And this is all just my experience, of course! It's different for everybody. The only thing that I can think of, that I don't like, is the acne. So annoying! But I'm going to see a dermatologist sometime soon! So, hopefully, I can get some help with that! But, I think that's all for now. Thank you for reading! Peace!

New Haircut!

posted: march 6th, 2025 (03:30pm)
mood: elated

HELLO AGAIN! I'm sooooo pleased today! I just got back from getting my hair cut! I went to a near by barber shop, despite being a little nervous about it, hehe... Barber shops always intimidate me because it's such a (cis) dude-centric place. I get anxious that I won't fit in whenever I go, but I've only had good experiences so far! ^_^

Anyway! I got the best haircut I've ever gotten in my life today. T_T Not even being hyperbolic or anything. My barber even lined up my mustache for me! This is only the second time I've ever been to a barber shop, but everyone is always very friendly and kind to me! And it's such a wonderful experience! But it also gives me such incredible gender euphoria... I left feeling sooo genuinely jittery with happiness. It also helps to have a barber who knows how to cut hair of my texture! Wow!!! I wished I could have hugged him, but I understand that would have been too much. LOL!

I think that's all I'll say for now! Thank you so much for reading! Have a great day! Bye!

New Site Layout!

posted: march 3rd, 2025 (7:30pm)
mood: focused

WOAH! Hello again! I know it's been a long time (almost a whole year!!!) since I last updated my website! I'm sorry for the lack of activity and I hope 2024 treated you well! I've been wanting to revamp my site for a while. The main problem was that I had no idea what I wanted to do with it really... But, inspiration suddenly struck me and I got to working on it right away! And I've been working on it for the past week or so! ^_^ I'm quite happy with it! More straightforward and organized, hopefully! I was getting a little sick of the clutter!

The bad news is that many (previously available) pages are going to be unavailable again as I recode everything! T_T But I'll be around in the meantime! Hopefully, I'll have (mostly) everything up again eventually! This site is a constant work in progress, after all! Anyway! Thank you for reading and have a great day!